Remember that one time I said I was going to blog every week? Welp... that was a big fat lie I suppose. The reality of it is... I am lazy and can't seem to commit to even just a few minutes a week. I'll have to work on that.
Before I begin, I will have to give you the very brief explanation of my last few months. Ready? Applied for a Ministry job in Germany. Got the job. Started training, flew to Colorado. Spent a week in Arizona with one of my best friends. Flew across the world to Japan. Worked with great students, served an even greater God. Life changing. Came back and finished out my 2nd to last semester at Corban. Moved into a houdse with a wonderful family of 7! Started working a few different jobs. Still living in Salem (well, technically Keizer) and am here for the summer. Now that we have that figured out, I'll continue. Last night as I was having one of my heart to heart conversation with Kim and Cyrus (dear friends I'm living with, parents of 5) I was reminded by Kim that I should blog more... I remember how long it had been since I last posted, so here I am. As I said before, I am currently living and working in Salem, simply to pay all of bills (is it too late to be a child again?). Well, to be honest, after an insanely busy few months, and what a roller-coaster it was, I am struggling to accept the fact that I am not so busy anymore. For those of you who know me, you know that I have always, always been quite the busy bee. So much so that it feels like I'm being tortured when I have no work to be done... I feel useless. So you could probably imagine that this season of my life has been a bit difficult when my only responsibilities are making coffee (I'm a barista) and drinking coffee (I'm a coffee addict). It is hard for me to feel valued and useful when I don't really have much that I need to do in my life right now. I struggle with finding myself believing the lie that because I am not busy doing things for once,. I am not important. Satan convinces me that because I am not working towards something "great", that my work in life is not "great". I think we all fall into this trap every now and then. I have a friend who is a new mom, and sometimes changing diapers and doing dishes doesn't make her feel like she is doing righteous work for the Lord. How many times have you believed that lie? As I have been fighting this inward battle, I am reminded of the times that Gods people probably felt the same way. "I'm just a fisherman. "I'm just a cup- bearer" or I'm just a shepherd." Little did they know that God would use each of those "mundane" jobs to bring Glory to His name. As I am thinking about going to work soon, I have to challenge myself to view my job as not only to make money, but as a ministry as well. As I am living with five kids, I have to remind myself that it is not simply wake up calls at 6:30 AM, or stepping on small toys 24/7, but it a ministry in and of itself. A chance for me to practice being Christ to these goofballs. Regardless of the tasks or jobs we have, there is value and significance in our lives. Do these things as unto the Lord, as they truly do please Him! Acknowledge the worth of motherhood. Seek the joys of waiting tables or working in an office. Find grace in the mundane. Worship God in the midst of it all, because it is all a part of His great plan.
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